Today was a difficult one for me.
While visiting my pregnant friend she grabbed my hand saying ‘quick the baby’s moving’ … she placed my hand on her baby bump and I felt him move – it wasn’t a kick, if i didn’t know better I would have thought he was snuggling into my hand. I Couldn’t breath. My heart was melting. It was the sweetest pain that left my hand feeling like it no longer belongs to me.
MY friend is beaming, Glowing, I have truly never seen her so happy. There was not one bit that I would wish away from her.
I’m Not in a Great place and ruined my diet by comforting my empty belly with a ton of chocolate….
….BUT I am NOT crumbling.
Progress? I Like to think so. I have an ache in my heart and I may have shed an invisible tear but I am still standing and will be tomorrow.
This is only one step, I know, but it finally it feels like I am facing the right way at least.