What. Did. I. Just. Do?
– each full stop representing me slamming my own head against the desk…..
I say again – What. Did I. Just do???
During a conversation with my pregnant friends sister about how exciting this December will be and her sisters joy at her due date actually being the very same day as my wedding anniversary, (Still recovering from that little cheeky kick in the gut) my friend bought up the dreaded baby shower…
I hope you all had the same Dun Dun DUURRR music in your head as I did in mine.
I, very proud of my self for looking like I had forgotten all about the fact that people actually do these things, said ‘oh yeah let me know when it will be, I’m Super looking forward to it’ only just managing NOT to clench my teeth through the last part.
‘Well’ she said ‘ here’s the thing…’ then went on to praise me on my ‘incredible’ party planning skills and my ability to bully people who don’t get along to put their own feelings aside for one special day… (not sure that one was a compliment) And eventually put in ‘ You Are the catering queen of our group.’
Ohhhh I see you want me to do some nibbles and the cake???… WRONG. Abit slow understanding… They want me to do it all. Everything.
F……..UDGE. I did not think fudge guys.
I opened my mouth to say that I think another close friend of hers would really love to be the one to honor with baby shower organiser, not at all caring if I dropped someone else in the crapper during my panic, but what in fact came out was what can only be described as an Eeek… of course she took this as and excited ‘Yes, Of course I will EEEK’ instead of the ‘No, sorry that sounds just awful EEEK’ that I had been thinking.
Look.. Im not a horrible person but having to go to a baby shower is hard enough without actually planning it.
So WHY did I not correct her?? I have NO idea.
COULD it be?? I actually want to not only participate in this celebration but plan it too?
NOOO…But I could do the awesome sugar cookies as Favours…… NNNOOO… BUT I DO Know a ton of party games……. Gosh, I think, just maybe, for reasons I don’t even understand, I want to do this.
I got home a then the panic really kicked in, really what was I thinking? I can’t handle this emotionally, Can I?
So I guess I have a Baby shower to plan.