It has been oneee tough week. Making a concious effort to Smile and laugh more but my heart is still taking some convincing.
I Did what I needed to do, I went to visit and congratulate my pregnant friend. I suppose I had something to prove. I needed to remind myself of a few things, one in particular – She deserves it.
It doesn’t matter how much I hurt or how much I physically ache for a family, it does Not mean that she shouldn’t have one. Seeing how happy she is, how could anyone wish that away?!
It was easier this time – weather its because i’m getting emotionally stronger or just the fact that she doesn’t know that we can’t have children ourselfs?
Either way I struggled through it like I always do and although It hurts, Alot, Now hopefully if I start to have some envious thoughts I can quickly squash them with the image of my dear friends joy.